Why do the things that make the most sense have to be the things you don't want?

And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand.
And I can't breathe without you,
But I have to.

It's 2 a.m., feeling like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me.