An Open Letter to a Former Friend
You'll probably never see this. In fact, I'm almost positive my words will never cross your screen. Irregardless, I feel compelled to speak from my heart and get some things off my chest. Call it closure, if you will.
I'd like to tell you that I'm not angry anymore. I know I said some terrible things to you and that they can never be taken back, but don't mistake this for a poor attempt at an apology. While I regret the words I spoke in the heat of the moment, they weren't untruthful. In fact, I told you exactly what I felt, and I felt that for a very long time.
I guess I wasn't as strong as I'd made myself out to be and having our friendship tossed so readily to the wayside shattered that wall of toughness I'd built up around myself. You managed to do what no one else had ever even tried, and that hurt touched me so deeply that it turned into hate and anger.
But I'd like to think that I've grown up a lot since then. I still don't understand the reason behind the demise of our friendship, but I'm no longer bitter about it.
They say time heals all wounds. I don't know if that's true. I don't know if enough time will ever pass to repair the rift between us, but if you ever want to try let me know.
What we had was special, and I'm a big enough person to admit that I miss it. A friendship like ours doesn't come along every day, and I believe we acted rashly to end it so abruptly. But I do respect your decision. I can't honestly say I would have done it differently...
I don't expect a response, for a variety of reasons. But I hope this letter finds you well and happy, and I hope you know I don't want anything but the best for you. You deserve it.
2 comments
i wonder if the person in question will see this post? and what will happen if they do!
ReplyDeletei have ditched many a friend over the years. i don't think i regret most of them. i don't think so, but i could stand to revisit the issue and see if any are worth reconnecting with. humph.
I considered emailing the link, but I doubt he'd even open the message.
ReplyDeleteNevertheless, it felt good to write this letter.