I'm not going to lie. This outfit wasn't meant to be shared. It wasn't even my planned outfit for that day. I had intended to wear the skirt with a graphic t-shirt but couldn't get the proportions right. On a whim, I pulled this crop top from my drawer and threw it on. To my surprise, I didn't hate it, even though two of my new scars were on display.

Obviously I didn't go anywhere since we've been quarantining the past two weeks, but it still took a good bit of courage for me to wear this outfit all day. I've been struggling with body positivity for the past year or so, pretty much ever since I first started struggling with all the issues associated with why I had a hysterectomy. It's hard to feel good about your body when your weight starts going up for seemingly no reason and no matter what you do you stay bloated. Needless to say, I stopped wearing a lot of my favorite clothes and stayed far away from anything even resembling form-fitting.

My body is returning to its old shape, slowly. Like I said in my Monday Motivation post for this week, I'm working on building my stamina and muscle tone back up, but already I can comfortably wear most of my pre-adenomyosis clothes. Am I where I'd like to be size-wise? Not yet, but I am celebrating this return to a happier me. And even though I'm still self-conscious about these photos, I had fun taking them, and that is a victory in itself.